Sunday, December 28, 2008

Rain.

Forgive me, but it's been a long few weeks and this poem suits me perfectly. (smiles)


Rain By Shel Silverstein

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

.Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas!

.Rejoice.
a Savior is BORN
Fa La La La from our Family to Yours!


Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Fa la la la

So this past week has been a whirlwind of busy-ness. I am in desperate need of a vacation :) Ha! Nathan is planning a little anniversary getaway for us coming up, so I am THRILLED about that and getting to spend some quality time with my love. We love being parents and being a family of three :) (and someday more, Lord willing) but it will be nice to have a weekend to ourselves. A FIRST since little man joined the Payne Party almost a year ago. Three years on January 7th. Wooohooo. :) What gift is that? Last year was cotton....i'll have to look it up. :)

I can't believe my baby is turning one in less than a month. I was thinking about his birth weekend just the other day (since baby Gabriella Carranza was born! wooo!). I got a little nostalgic walking along the corridors of the baby wing at our hospital. But I'll save my fun stories for Wesley's ACTUAL birthday blog. :) You know how I can carry on so.

So I took Wesley to the doctor today and he has RSV. :( Isn't it just heartbreaking when our little ones get sick. I hate seeing little ones feeling so terrible, ESPECIALLY on such a magical week as Christmas So pray for my little guy. He is miserable and congested and coughing and very exhausted from it all. We are giving him breathing treatments (which he absolutely hates so it is a wrestling match and it wears him out even more). I was so frustrated at the pediatrician's today. I know they are busy because it's cough and cold and flu season, but they are ALWAYS impatient with me. They didn't even tell me that wesley had RSV. I had to find answers myself and THEN they told me. It was very frustrating chasing the nurses around so that I could get some answers. It's quite the story, I'll share with you personally if you're interested. But I warn you, it is definitely not positive and encouraging, so I understand if you don't care. :)

So I am switching pediatricians offices. I'm calling a new office tomorrow. (thanks sandi!)

Oh, how am I doing, you wonder? Thanks for asking.
I'm a little bummed.. Make that VERY bummed that my baby boo is not having the exciting party filled Christmas that we normally have. We aren't going to have our annual Guerra Christmas Eve bash like we usually do and I don't know if we'll even venture out Christmas day to our designated family events. It's a bummer for real.
But this reminds me that the magic of Christmas isn't about parties and Christmas Eve Eve services or gifts or even wishing store clerks a "Merry Christmas" (which i love to do haha). It's about the birth of a Savior and how he was born for purpose: to rescue us and give us hope.

I was driving home tonight from Walgreens (tissue run) and I was thinking about how I've been so disappointed (naturally) that this Christmas is going to be a little different due to us being under the weather....and I realized that with all my fine preaching and striving to "do" Christmas right, I was missing my own points.

So thank you Lord, for teaching me old lessons in new ways. I have been so selfish and I just pray that my little one heals swiftly. He is so darling and such a joy to my heart.

So I'll end this with a list of things I am so indeed thankful for.
  • my Nathan. He is my partner, my friend, and my encourager...he is definitely the cheese to my macaroni.
  • my little man. It confounds me how someone so small can teach me such big lessons. Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to love as a mom loves. It is very powerful.
  • family. My parents are always there for us, always, my brother always can make me laugh and he loves his nephew. My family is never boring. :) it's so fun hanging out with them.
  • Nathan's family. They are always there for you if you need them, Terina (nates momma) will drop anything if we need her to come in and help us with a problem. (Maaan you should try her new apple butter recipe...it's awesome!)
You know...there is a lot that I could name....but I'm going to stop there. I am tremendously blessed. Family, Friends, Love. If I start naming everything, I might not stop.

I am thankful for YOU. :)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

My sick babies

Nathan was sick all last week (still getting over it) and now little Wesley is sick. Coughing, congestion, runny noses, grumpyness....

pray for my little family. We are NOT happy when we are sick and this week is supposed to be pretty busy (hello Christmas!).

Maybe this is the Lord showing us to slow down. Or eat more green beans. Haha!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Let it snow!

It's funny. I anticipate the Advent Season all year long and when it gets here, it flies by. Absolutely just flies by. It's a little disappointing how fast it goes. We put up our Christmas tree the minute Thanksgiving comes to a close and we have hot chocolate and hot tea and sit by the tree and dream of sugar plummed fairies and dancing fairy princesses and nutcrackers in their grand attire, we whisper to Santa and shout that a Savior is born and sing the lovely songs and kiss under the mistletoe.

And then it's gone. With the new year approaching. A new year to ponder and a new year to make a difference in this world.

Last weekend Jamie took my family's Christmas pictures. :) It was SUCH fun.
We hadn't done anything like that in ages and it was so fun seeing Wesley run around Heritage Park like a loose canon. :) He is just so sweet.



So I'm a little late on working on our Christmas cards, but you'll get them before Christmas! :)
Like I mentioned before, this month is just zipping by. We've had Nathan's company Christmas party, several Christmas related photo sessions, family in town, our Volunteer Banquet at church (which I posted my pics of it on the church's flickr site) Wesley's first Santa experience, Santa Day @ Citgo, etc. etc. etc. And it's only the 15th! My baby boy turns 11 Months on WEDNESDAY. Can you believe our boys are almost 11 months, Kasey? I can't believe Wesley and his birthday buddy Easton are such big boys. It just brings tears to my eyes thinking how quickly children grow and change.

I am really excited about Wesley's first Birthday Party. :) It's something I haven't really give much thought to, but I told my parents I want it to be a pizza party. We had pizza at every fun party we had growing up, including our WEDDING (which rocked, by the way!) and I want my son to have pizza at his first birthday party. :) Oh did you know that Pizza Hut is changing all their ingredients? I haven't tried the new stuff, but I'll let you know when it rolls out. :) If you care, that is. Ha!
Anyways, what have you moms done for your baby's first birthday parties? Anything special or momentous happen? I've never been to a first birthday party before. :) Is that because they aren't that big of a deal? or because I just always miss them?

Tomorrow our friend CHERLY comes in town. She's been living in Australia for like 5 years!! She's an environmental animal lover type. :) She used to work at the Aquarium. She got her Masters over there in the land down under. She has dual-citizenship. I AM SO EXCITED to see "my shark". We met my freshman year of college and she called me her little "fish". She is definitely a kindred spirit. So I will post pictures of our pachanga that we're going to have for her at Jenna's house.
The above picture is of Charity, Cheryl, me & Nathan at Cheryl's house when she lived here. :) Good memories, right Chair Bear? I am so excited to see Cheryl!!!!

Ok, Wesley is getting up from his nap. I better run!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Brandon Heath

Brandon Heath's song "Give Me Your Eyes" is stuck in my head.
A couple weeks ago (when it was a nice 78 degrees outside) I was sitting at the intersection of Staples and Williams near Moore Plaza with my windows rolled down listening to K-Love. I was running errands by myself while Wesley and Nathan were hangin out at the casita. It was sort of refreshing being by myself, enjoying the cool breeze, not all impatient at the long line of people trying to turn Right onto Staples. (I was coming from Rodd Field). Well Brandon Heath's song came on and I really just listened to the words while I sat there staring at people driving by, at people trying to merge through the construction, at people trying to get onto the road from the nearby parking lots. I noticed the people crossing the streets, the homeless guys on the corner with their signs that say "Need Help, God Bless". I noticed that nearly every person in front of me were on their cell phones while we waited for the red light to change. I was just so overcome by the "millions" of people that inhabit this earth. Billions really. But the astronomical, growing, amount of people who live and breathe, who were created for purpose. I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't hit the gas for just one moment because the greatness of creation was pressing against me. I used to tell Nathan that women were the crown of creation. (I said it all the time when we were dating hehe) I became very aware of this infinite, passionate love that God has for all his creation. I was in awe. Deep, real, awe. I felt the words of Brandon's song and I just praised God for giving me that moment of sympathy for the people of the world. I hope to never let that go. Check out his music video below. And I encourage you today to just really look at people the way our Creator looks at them. It, to me, is an impossible feat, but one that we can strive for. It will bless your soul, really.


Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes lyrics

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
All those people going somewhere,
Why have I never cared?

Chorus:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach.
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
Yeah
Yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what's underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time
All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared?

Chorus

I've Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all along



Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Dear Mother

My friend Kate posted this. And I thought I would pass it on.



This gentleman is compiling a list of "letters by mothers to mothers". You can read about it here.
I am going to join with other mothers, including Kate, on writing my thoughts and encouragements on my first year of motherhood. I am very excited about this.

If you're a mom, you should join in! What a great idea!

I can't sit here long, I had a crazy busy weekend of photo shoots and am quickly getting the photos to their respective owners. :) Goodnight!

Sunday, December 07, 2008

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

I am anticipating a snowfall this year on our sandy beaches :)
We had a deliriously busy weekend, but smiled a lot, had some laughs and had some good food!

Quick Recap!
  1. Oso Creek Volunteer Christmas Banquet
  2. Took group photos for a doctor's office Christmas Party
  3. Took some family pictures
  4. Took some newlywed pictures for a couple who eloped :)
  5. Santa Day at Nathan's Work
  6. Dinner out with the hubby
  7. Mother-in-law stayed in town with us to help with Wesley pooh
  8. The busiest night in Valet history and I made Nathan go to the banquet with me :)
  9. We got our new couches in
  10. And everything in between
It was such fun and I will post pictures of Wesley's first hysterical encounter with Santa, his first pony ride, fun with some fellow Creekers, and our Christmas tree trimmed with love.

Now...I am going to crash into my pillow and dream of peppermint mochas and all the lovely blogs that are coming your way....

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Smile At Cashier Clerks

I am just going to start plowing through the things that are rolling around in my head.

The first one.
SMILE AT CASHIER CLERKS! They are doing something I never had the guts to do. Working at a retail store during the holiday season. :) (I lasted 2 weeks)

I have a story to tell you.
I was in line at Hobby Lobby. And many of you probably know that while Hobby Lobby is a proclaimed faith-owned store, there are some horrible attitudes walking around there from employees to shoppers. So many grumps out there! Well, they are known for having long lines around here......very long, very slow, very exhaustingly hot lines. It's pretty awful and I feel tired just remembering how warm it was in there that day. Well, there were several people in front of me in this particular line and let's just say the impatience was just saturating the air. I couldn't breathe because of the stank of so many people stomping their feet, groaning and complaining to this poor lady that was doing her best to check them out at a quick pace.

Now, I'm a self-proclaimed impatiently patient person. :) Confusing, huh? I can absolutely stand in line for HOURS because I know how exhausting and frustrating it can be to check people out. (I did a brief retail stint in my younger years) But there are other things that I just lose my patience on real fast.....that's another story for another date.

Anyways, while Wesley and I were waiting in line and the lady in front of us was complaining and hassling, I was tickling Wesley and making goofy faces at him and he was just laughing hysterically. I couldn't help laughing with him because he was just being such a sweet little ham. The time felt like none at all because of his sweet mood and before we knew it, we were at the front of the line checking out.

Then...the clerk looked at me and sighed deeply and said "Thank you for your patience, hearing your son's beautiful laugh was so refreshing".
To which I smiled and said she was doing an excellent job and tried to encourage her. She really did look like she was about to lose some tears.

When I walked away, thinking of her smiles and the frown she had previously been wearing, I was just overcome by how selfish we are, especially at this season of celebration, when we should be giving giving giving, loving loving loving and sharing sharing sharing. We should shout from the rooftops that a Savior is alive and moving and that these things we are spending money on are not eternal. They are not forever.

But Jesus is.


So smile at the people who are working hard to check your purchases. They were created for the Glory of Heaven. Just like you. Just like me. For His honor. For His glory.

Monday, December 01, 2008

The Tale of Despereaux

I am giddy. Nathan put Christmas lights on our house. I hung our wreath on our front door and we set up our beautiful tree with all our special memories. We don't use real trees for several reasons, but mostly because we have a toddling ten month old who puts any and everything in his mouth. :) I loved hanging three stockings on our mantle. :) It warms my heart.
And so far Wesley just looks at the tree. I caught him standing next to it this morning just staring at the twinkling lights. He didn't touch it or move or anything, he just stood there and stared up at this large indoor tree wondering why on earth mommy and daddy felt like they needed to plant something like that inside the house. I can just imagine what he's thinking.

So now that Wesley is on the move and walking like a pro and quickly at that that, do any of you moms have any tips on how to buy toddler shoes that are affordable? I just can't believe how much these little shoes cost and how fast Wesley's feet are growing. Any tips are welcome!

We had a nice, laid back Thanksgiving with my family. We went over to Nathan's aunts in the evening for dinner, but none of his immediate family was there because they were all in Kyle, Tx at his little sister's house. We weren't able to travel because Nate was on call, but I'm not entirely sure that we would have made the trip. Wesley was teething horribly for two days and was hot and fussy and just miserable. Poor kid. Breaks my heart. Growing is so hard.

I have so much on my mind right now, but my left eye is squeezed shut because I think I might have a scratch on it. Wesley stabbed me in the eye with his fingers today on accident while I was settling him down for his nap. Pray it's nothing, I'm not an eye doctor kind of girl. If you know what I mean. So since my eye is shut and I'm slowly losing energy as we speak, I will share my thoughts with you at a later time.

Here's a preview:
  • I need Africa more than Africa needs me
  • The Tales of Beedle the Bard
  • Smile at cashier clerks
  • Give me Your eyes for just one second
  • Italy
  • The Tale of Despereaux
  • Advent Conspiracy
Ok, as obscure as those tidbits were, I have quite a range of subjects plowing through my head and my heart.

And with that, I bid you adieu.