Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Has it really been 11 days since I last sat before you shrieking over my busy life? Indeed, our tiny house has seen very little of the four of us these past weeks. We've been in, out, and far, far away (well....a few hundred miles at least). I love the adventure of our lives, but I often find myself pining for a quieter, less restricted, less calendared life. I long for tall trees and winding rivers and mountains in the distance. I very rarely find myself desiring to walk on the beach.

I do cherish the sound of the waves and the way salt smells. Sunscreen and sweat and salt are one of my favorite scents. It comes from my long, sweaty, beautiful summers living at camp. And I look back to when my mom used to take Brandon and me to the beach very early as the sun was just awakening to explore the dunes and water's edge for treasures. We would carry our buckets of sludge, shells, and hermit crabs (who were no doubt praying for a swift end) to my grandmother's house and proudly lay our treasures before her.

The beach also awakens memories of our friend Joe to my mind. Maybe because I stood at the water's edge so many times that fall yearning for his safe return. Pleading in my heart for his rescue. Wishing he would come home. Sometimes when Nate and I have lunch, we sit on one of the T-heads or at the Barge dock, enjoying the beauty of the day with the windows rolled down, amd I look out across the water and feel that dull ache that reminds me of what we've lost and what heaven has gained. I miss that man, so.

But even these cherished memories of the beach are not enough to deter my desires for the mountains and trees. Palm trees dot our coastal town and I just wish for tall great oaks to swing from. To sit under. To dream under.

Wesley told me today "I wish I knew how to climb a tree. I just don't know how." and while it made me laugh, it made me secretly yearn for a house nestled in a hill among the trees. I know that Nathan is weary of me saying it, so this will be my last narrative concerning the topic. (right. ha!)
So for now, I leave you with a picture of a tree that I would love to visit someday.
This picture was shot at The Avenue, Shotover Estate, Oxfordshire, England
Isn't it perfect?

xo jade

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Picky Palate

I have a crazy busy whirlwind weekend happening RIGHT NOW and don't have much time to do just about anything fun. :) Except maybe make goo-goo eyes at my husband while he finishes some bathroom re-model stuff. So manly. And I got to pick the paint. Woo!

So I leave you with a website that also causes me to make the goo-goo eyes.


A little obsessed with her magical take on all things food.
Is it normal to have a crush on a food blog?

....oh I wish I had skills in the kitchen.
...or time to attempt it.

Read this blog. It's amazing and will leave you dreaming of food all day long.

xo jade

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Light in the darkness

The world was watching when waves swept upon that island that is no stranger to devastation and grief. My heart ached for those who were lost. For those who were found and bleeding. For those who were separated from their beloveds. I've seen the pictures. I've watched the videos. I've thought and prayed about how I can help. Me. Jade. How can I accomplish what everyone else only dreams about? How can I be a do-er?

I also read the paper that same day. Murder. Thieving. Nasty, bleak happenings across the globe.
Then I saw on Facebook some harsh words that were exchanged by people. Negativity. yuck.
I also saw the whimpering of Americans across the country, frustrated by the elevated costs of living.
And to top it off, I have been sick. Major pressure in my head.
But also, pressure on my weary heart.

My husband kissed me, said he missed me, promised some time together soon.
My children grinned their silly boyish smiles at me.
My parents confirmed in me the child they raised, they encouraged me & loved me.
My brother made me laugh with his ridiculous texts and he loves my boys with such joy.
My friends moved me with their continued love. Their continued community.
I remembered that Jesus died for me. Loves me in spite of my sin. My selfishness. My faulty perspective.

I don't always have answers. I don't always have pretty words or melodies to share. I often make crude, ridiculous mistakes.

The world may be tilting too quickly, spinning too swiftly.
People may hate. They might fight. They are human.

And I will continue to love, to grin. To fight.

I read this today from the Rabbit Room.
"The world knows darkness. Christ came into the world to show us light. I have seen it, have been blinded by it, invaded by it, and I will tell its story. I cannot help but see that story everywhere I look. I see it when I am full of joy and weightless as a cloud, and I see it when grief and self-loathing root me to the cold earth; it is remembering the story, Christ whispering it in my ear, that kills the despair, sets me gently on the donkey, and takes me to an inn to recover from the wounds. How can I keep myself from singing?"

Sunday I shot some engagement pictures of a couple I've known since they were but children on the threshold of young adulthood. Their sincerity, their joy, their passion for Jesus. It was remarkable, enjoyable, soothing to my heart. To see in the midst of devastation, despair, unforgiveness; a couple who had light emanating from their joined hands. It is my joy to be a part of their journey to marriage.

And likewise on Saturday I attended a bridal shower for one of the high school girls I loved so well when Nate&myself worked with the youth of our church. Her affirmation in her future marriage to this young man was startling. I am often plagued with grief over young marriages that are in the throes of discontent and insecurity. But this young bride grinned as she told of her confidence in this marriage that will soon be upon us and how her talents, gifts, and passions are amplified as she walks arm in arm with her beloved. SUCH joy! I was delighted, tearful, and thankful to see another bright spark of Jesus being glorified in and through the obedience of his sheep.

Although I am sick (and my whole household too), I am so thankful at this moment and will continue to grin, persevere, fight.
How can I not?

xo jade

Friday, March 11, 2011

Smiling faces

Aren't these faces just the best?

I certainly have had quite a bit piling up these last few days, and tonight was a refreshing change of scenery for my little family! We were able to spend some joyful moments hanging around some friends of ours out at their farmhouse and big brother was just loving every moment. Dirt, rocks, goats, smiling faces....who wouldn't love that?!

Time to tuck in!
xo jade

"Once in a hotel dining-room, I said, rather too loudly, "I loathe prunes." "So do I" came an unexpected six-year-old voice from another table. Sympathy was instantaneous. Neither of us thought it funny. We both knew that prunes are far too nasty to be funny. That is the proper meeting between man and child as independent personalities." CS Lewis

Sunday, March 06, 2011

Waiting for Spring

My little family loves the changing of the seasons. To see the heat of summer slip away and step into the lovely, swirly, falling leaves of autumn is sweet relief. But also to see the biting cold of winter drifting off to sleep is a wonderful feeling of renewal. I absolutely love our Springtime. I wish it lasted longer, for summer is too much of a harsh reality for us southerners and we soon will be praying for the relief of the winter months. But for one brief moment, we celebrate the arrival of Spring. The wildflowers begin to bloom and the sunlight has a fresh, newborn look about it. We spend endless hours outside, soaking in the sunshine and the wind, tossing rocks into pools of water and picking buttercups for our basket of "Lost Things". I am amazed at the joy my big boy gets by exploring and imagining. One of my greatest pastimes is to watch his little mind work and to anticipate the fun he and his brother will have once the smaller one is able to join the older outside. Though, I don't wish for time to pass by, I do look forward to the fun they will have (in addition to the fun they already share in their own little ways) in the great outdoors of Spring.

We welcome you, Spring...

xo jade

Friday, March 04, 2011

Etsy Love

I am in love with Etsy. The people on there are inventive, adorable, and addicting. I am seriously thinking about attempting that upper level of cool and creating an Etsy site where I can sell little jade things like art and prints. I wonder if I would sell anything. :/ I will just have to think on it and pray about it. I don't want to start something unless I am going to follow through 100% and with wedding season about to be upon us, I would rather not get that beautiful silver hair prematurely.

So as I ponder the opening of an Etsy shoppe, I will just continue to browse the seemingly endless number of adorable shoppes and keep dropping hints to my beloved husband about the endless amount of adorable jewelry and trinkets and art that I would enjoy :) wink.

I recently discovered this adorable vintage hot air balloon necklace. I am in love with it. Big boy's room is decorated in an Around the World in 80 Days theme (complete with hot air balloons hanging from the ceiling) and I just about fell off my chair when I saw this.
I think I'm in love :)

AND then I saw this!! And of course, my littlest explorer has his nursery done in SPACE exploration and I am such a huge fan of this rustic locket (I collect lockets, you know...)
Isn't it just the bomb diggity? I love it. Its actually a spherical locket. Totally dig it!!!

:) Ok enough silliness. I'm loving today's wind and sun breaking through the gray skies!
xo jade

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Four Months already??

The littlest explorer is four months old! Monday marked his four month birthday and I had planned on penning a wee bit something about his remarkable recovery and growth since his surgery, but I have been swamped with so much!

My littlest explorer is sleeping great (still gets up for a 6am feeding) eating wonderfully (he is getting nice and plump) and his laughs make everyone around him grin. He loves to be surprised and his big brother is his favorite person. It's adorable and I am so blessed by my sweet boys.

We had a check up with his surgeon on Tuesday and doc said he was perfect. I am continuing to pray for continued healthy growth (for both my boys!) and look forward to seeing baby boy interacting more and more with big brother. It's fabulous and I am in love...

xo jade