Wednesday, April 25, 2012

April Showers

iphone capture: when the first storm came

These past weeks have been building up to some big things that are happening around here. I don't deal with stress well, nor do I handle the overly busy days gracefully. Often, I become so overwhelmed that I just shut down and accomplish nothing for a whole day, because I feel like the walls are caving in on me. (Did you know that I am severely claustrophobic too? I don't know when that began for me in life, but as an almost 28 year old woman, I am terrified of small spaces.) I hate when I shut down. It just happens when I see no free time looming on the horizon. When I know a month of chaos is just around the corner, the tired, overwhelmed feeling takes over.

I was lying in bed last night, tossing and turning, fretting and frustrated, when I realized that I can't shut down. I have too much at stake. The well-being of my family. The well-being of my spirit. It's all on my head. My children need their mom. And my husband needs his wife. And I need God's mercy.

And so, I'm thankful for the refreshing rain that has fallen on our little blue house these past few weeks. (we've had quite some storms!) For the moments of quiet, I am truly grateful. But I'm ready to tackle whatever crazy is on my calendar (starting this weekend). I won't allow myself to be overwhelmed. (or even just plain whelmed..haha jk) I will be brave.

"From the ends of the earth I call to you,
   I call as my heart grows faint;
   lead me to the rock that is higher than I" --Psalm 61:2

Fighting the busy blues,

Friday, April 13, 2012

Wesley Tales

Yesterday I bought a brand new pair of scissors for sewing. So I marked all over them writing things like "JADE ONLY" "FOR SEWING" and then I wrote "MAGIC SCISSORS" across the side.

Wesley overheard Nate teasing me and said "Magic Scissors?? You're being crazy".

And I replied "Crazy? No. I'm being smart. Because I'm using my imagination."

A little while later Wesley says "Where's the Magic Remote? See. I'm using my imagination. I must be smart."

This kid cracks me up.

Off to imagine,

Monday, April 09, 2012

{Queen of the Paper Crown Princess Society}

This is Amanda. She's whimsical. She's fun. She's inventive. She's brave.

And she is the Queen of the Paper Crown Princess Society.

You see, Amanda, author of Keep It Complicated, has done something many of us only dream of: she's written a book. A children's book to be exact. I've had the delightful privilege of reading a rough draft that Amanda sent me, and let me tell you, I'm excited. BEYOND excited. Ecstatic. Over the moon.

The book, Sadie-The Paper Crown Princess, is absolutely spectacular. I intend to get several copies for the special little girls in my life. You can actually join the Paper Crown Princess Society and have yours or your special someone's little signature in the first edition. You can read more about the Paper Crown Princess Society here, and I encourage you to participate!

I felt so honored that Amanda asked me to shoot some head shots of her. She's a great photographer herself, so I was excited to be the one to take HER picture. I admire her spunk, her tenacity, her beautiful heart. To be around her is to be comfortable, and I love it.
So here are a few glimpses into the fun sunlit evening we had together.

Amanda, cheers to you, dearest. Your book is smashing, which is what I knew it would be from the moment I heard you were writing it.

And you, my friends, who keep up with my blog, feel free to read up more on Sadie, and Amanda, and everything along the way on the Sadie Blog and Keep it Complicated! You'll love it!

A fellow Paper Crown Princess,
jade.... :)

Friday, April 06, 2012

Good Friday

HOSANNA (words by andrew peterson)
I am tangled up in contradiction.
I am strangled by my own two hands.
I am hunted by the hounds of addiction.
Hosanna! I have lied to everyone who trusts me.
I have tried to fall when I could stand.
I have only loved the ones who loves me.

O Hosanna!
See the long awaited king come to set his people free.
We cry O Hosanna!
Come and tear the temple down.
Raise it up on holy ground. Hosanna!

I have struggled to remove this raiment, tried to hide every shimmering strand.
I contend with these ghosts and these hosts of bright angels.
I have cursed the man that you have made me, as I have nursed the beast that bays for my blood.
Oh, I have run from the one who would save me.
Save me, Hosanna!

O Hosanna!
See the long awaited king, come to set his people free.
We cry O Hosanna!
Come and tear the temple down.
Raise it up on holy ground.

We cry for blood, and we take your life.
We cry for blood, and we take your life.
It is blood, it is life that you have given.

You have crushed beneath your heel the vile serpent. 
You have carried to the grave the black stain. 
You have torn apart the temple’s holy curtain. 
You have beaten Death at Death’s own game. 

O Hosanna!
Hail the long awaited king, come to set his people free.
We cry O Hosanna!
Won’t you tear this temple down, raise it up on holy ground.
O Hosanna!
I will lift my voice and sing: you have come and washed me clean.

Thursday, April 05, 2012

{The Lost Ring}

Our wedding rings

When the boy asked me to marry him
I loved my engagement ring. The first reason I loved it so deeply was because Nathan gave it to me. The second reason I loved it was because it was gorgeous. Preee-taaaay!

When I lost my ring the summer before Spencer was born, I was horrified. I couldn't imagine a replacement. I was convinced that I had taken the ring off in my sleep (which I was in the habit of doing as I was becoming so very pregnant with Spence and my hands were swelling--along with the rest of me) I knew that it was somewhere in my house. I just knew it.

 Nate and I had DESTROYED the house looking for it. I would become agitated and frustrated and just give up looking. Nearly 2 years later....I am delighted to announce that it has been found! 

It's weird, really. I was thinking about my ring as I took a shower, put on pjs, got my glass of water....was about to tuck in for the night, maybe read a bit while Nate was doing a bit of computer work. Then a thought crossed my mind "I haven't organized my jewelry boxes in a while". Weird thought for 10 at night. But what the heck. The ring was still sort of hovering in the back of my mind.

So I got my largest jewelry box, set it on my bed and started digging through it. I started grinning over some pieces that I have kept over the years. A dolphin necklace a boy gave me in junior high. A dolphin bracelet another boy gave me. A necklace my friend Theresa gave me, and yet another charm that my friend Erin gave me that says "edaj" (jade backwards. likewise, she had one that said "nire" that I gave her)

When I discovered the ring tonight
And as I was going through the contents of my box, grinning foolishly over the beautiful memories of the people I have loved through the years, I picked up a brooch that my mother gave me....and gasped.

Lying beneath the brooch, tucked into the corner of that particular drawer was my ring! MY MISSING RING!

 I picked it up. Felt the familiar setting, the familiar weight of it. I turned it over and over in my hand and then shrieked for Nathan. I said I had found my ring, and he came into the room with a skeptical look on his face. He was so surprised by the discovery. I didn't realize I was crying until he touched my face and teased me. He got down on one knee and put it back on my hand and said "yep, this feels right".

I'm so giddy, it's unbelievable. A few times over the last 20 months since it went missing, we've looked at other rings to replace it, and I've been sad each time. Nothing is what I wanted. I just kept longing for MY ring. The ring Nathan placed on my finger.

Back on my hand, where it belongs
Honestly, we BOTH had searched that box before when we were hunting for the missing ring. We were shocked that it was right there, this whole time. Just waiting to be discovered.

I'm so thankful we found it.
But truly, I'm thankful for the boy who gave it to me in the first place.
The boy, who is now a man, and the father of my children.

Ah. Happiness.

Monday, April 02, 2012


You know how in the last post I suggested that I would take more pictures with my "big girl camera" of my family and friends and life events?

Yea. I failed miserably this week. hahahaha.
Ok. To try again this week.

Stay tuned for a full, fluffy, crazy blog bursting with what's been happenin' round here including some thoughts on the Resurrection. <3